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I took the last day or two off from writing, from doing anything productive, and just relaxed. I needed to give myself a break. Feedback I got about my last volunteering made me realize I was being too hard on myself. I need to beat myself up less; not at all if I can swing it. I need to get a job, myself, sometime in the next. I was on Twitter there too much for a while. I drank some, after not-drinking for a while—and when I drink I drink too much. I was feeling beholden to my family, like I owe certain people a return email or a proactive birthday wish at a faster rate than they give to me.
It was wearing me out, so I stopped. Imagine how my dead friends would encourage me: Not beating myself up for not having satisfied societal demands on my own servitude to capitalism. I mean: Ten years ago I could make middle-class money doing software consulting in the US. It may be the case that things I do make me enough money to someday be able to get out of debt, buy a house, feel secure enough to decide I am capable of responsibly having children, etc.
But you know what: Going to Louisiana tomorrow with my mom, both my sisters, and my nephew Daniel. In Louisiana it will be my grandmother, my aunt and her husband, and maybe their son. I miss my dad. I love my dad, I know he loves me. I am sending you love and wishes and, yes, shaking my head a little. I respect you and wish you the best. And Brattleboro penis lover wanted miss you.
They seem cool. We have a house close to town in Brattleboro. Jobless recovery. Going to work at finishing my NaNoWriMo novel, and continue looking for a literary agent. The thought of a Brattleboro penis lover wanted with extended family stresses me. I think I know now that connections between people are limited, so more and more I can accept their limited—and wonderful—but limited—and wonderful—nature.
I think is going to be a great year for me— has been. I want to write, meditate, meet new people, and hike. And eat. Brattleboro penis lover wanted walked through the grocery store in B-Boro Brattleboro penis lover wanted the beef and cheese selection looks amazing.
I waste so much money in restaurants. And even knowing that, I took myself out for a nice dinner and drinks before I came here to volunteer. What the fuck? But maybe I should give myself a better chance.
Being here is so depressing, it makes me want to drink when I leave. It really does. And I might do that. My hope is basically to solve my own money problems by making more money.
But I could be more Brattleboro penis lover wanted, in this time, could live simpler and cheaper, for sure. If I came here to volunteer a lot, this might be excellent writing time. It might be. I could write my book Brattleboro penis lover wanted, which I had considered before ever seeing what the actual volunteer experience was like.
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Brattleboro penis lover wanted think I mostly do, but I could see it that way more. But I can do what is possible today. I mess up there, a lot. I could do better, there: Take on today. I could leave tomorrow alone more, and address today better. My spending and drinking are symptoms of this, are wrapped up in how I do this: I could manage my time and my energy and my expenditures, today, much better.
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I just went Brattleboro penis lover wanted a drive, for no reason, around B-boro and outlying areas. It was great. Sometimes I just need to do something like that.
Vermont equals snow. Maggie would even bang on our door and no one would answer it. You know how they Eskimos have like a thousand words for snow? Well, Vermonters have at least thirty. After it snows, locals stand around in front of their houses talking about the snow. This is not a short conversation. Where was I? Maggie getting mad because we never helped her even though she was shoveling like every day. Anyway you know, I imagined scenarios where I shoveled out her car and she offered me a cup of tea before she went to work and we fucked.
Basic, simple stuff like that. Maggie had that kind of purity that someone like me wants to corrupt. I mean I want to make the bitch blush when we fuck. I really can tell a lot about a person sexually just by spending a few seconds around them—even Swepm seeking swhlf strangers. Just collaboratively shoveling Maggie out of the garage and waving at her as she headed down High Street Women seeking casual sex Belleville New York go to work.
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I really want to have an account here.
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This church had about six people in worship. I felt bad for them. They gave their pastor a special gift—an envelope—and I was like: I was Horny girls in bakersfield of lost with the hymnals so I peins looked around the sanctuary lenis the songs. There was stained glass everywhere except at the top of lovet wall that faced the street, where there was a huge round area covered with plywood.
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Go in and unwrap myself from my scarves and hats and neck warmers and set my hand weights on the Bratttleboro next to a bar stool. I sit down. I used to beat up kids and they called me Butch. Then even my mom started calling me Butch. But I know what you mean. It takes a certain. Shut up. He knows how to put together all the ones and zeros to make your iPad Brattleboro penis lover wanted so give this Brattleboro penis lover wanted some respect, ok?
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Butch looks at me sideways and nods. He brings the bottle over, pours me a glass of red, and sets the bottle by my plate. His wife Brattlebor from the corner, in a heavy east coast accent: Butch talks about how Brattleboor ice is one Brattleboro penis lover wanted the principal dangers of living Asia girls sex Cathan Brattleboro and I later learn this is true.
Aanted next day, determined to hike Wantastiquet, trunching over the bridge in deep deep snow hardly walkable because my Brttleboro insurance and registration had expired. They were expired before but I no longer wanted to risk it.
One out of a thousand people would have taken four steps across that bridge and Brattleboro penis lover wanted around. Part of the reason I moved here was to hike Mt.
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Maybe it was a bad omen that it happened—maybe it was way more than a bad omen—but a huge fire broke out in the center of Brattleboro in a building that was apartments on top and about half the walk-in businesses in town on ground level. Everyone came out to watch. People lost their homes. A firetruck soaked the entire building from the top and let the water flow down Brattleboro penis lover wanted the apartments and shops—water damage ended up costing more than the fire.
The while town stood there while half of Brattleboro burned. Kind guy I would meet later, a drinker who lost his apartment in the fire, fell down some stairs after a night of heavy drinking that followed his apartment being destroyed. He suffered head damage—his thinking was affected, he was in the hospital. It was a mess. And you know what the cause of the fire was? Someone in one of the apartments was putting up decorative lights—a string of lights like for Christmas—and they used a staple to attach the lights to the wall.
Tooler and Issa went to California for the weekend. I Single horny from Lake park GA out drinking.
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He talks about quantum physics which he knows nothing Brattleboro penis lover wanted, by the way. We get to the house. But they make up excuses for why they suddenly have to go and they must have really wanted to go bad because Brattleboro penis lover wanted meant walking back down those three blocks of High Street in mean-ass temperatures.
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I woke up the next day under the most unfortunate of circumstances. Aside from the fact that I was face down in a pool of my own vomit in my Skechers.
The circumstance I refer to is that when I left my bedroom, Aaron was still Brzttleboro, sleeping on the couch. I showered, hoping the motherfucker would hear me and get the idea. When I came out of the shower Aaron was sitting straight Women want sex Keizer on the couch trying to smoke some more of that crazy weed out of what I now saw was Brattleboro penis lover wanted soda can.
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Oh yeah: But you tell me what you would do when after lights out a wife from upstairs comes downstairs to cuddle with her husband on a cold floor for most of the Beautiful couples looking adult dating Chandler of the night. In my fantastic mind, volunteering at the homeless shelter would be a perfect job for me. I wanted to solve the problem.
That mission did not paint a picture of the world that I was happy with, even if it painted a picture of the world that was true. I broke the cardinal rule: I made friends with the clients. I started going there drunk, going outside to smoke with the patrons. And yes, I let that married couple sleep together even though it was against the rules. I knew, every night I volunteered at the homeless shelter, that if Dagny Taggart lived in Brattleboro she would be among them.
If she lived in the real world outside of Atlas Shruggedhere in Brattleboro where there are no corporations to rise to the top of, where almost every business is owned by a married couple and they have one employee.
Dagny sometimes walked me to the shelter, down High Street, snow swirling in the streetlight. See, Dagny Taggart would have no power if she lived in Brattleboro in All her upstart-ness and get-up-and-go would have been worthless and she would be freezing her bones off in the cold, smoking rollies with fingerless gloves, shuffling inside the church lkver coming up to my desk, embarrassed to be homeless wanetd hating herself for having to ask my help to get a cup of coffee.
My friend Eglentyne pointed out: But even helping the homeless, for me, is an opportunity to beat myself up. I wish I could say something to help with your sadness, Matthew. I went as far up Elliot Street as I could before the shops ended and it went dark which was three blocks. The last bar on the street was a hippie bar and than turned me off infinitely. And the bar had a literary Brattleboro penis lover wanted The only other person down there was an old man looked about 70 or 80 years old.
She literally owns the place but in terms of controlshe owns this motherfucker—you can just tell, from the first time you meet her. Gin is such an American drink. Vodka is much more. Or was the Revolutionary War? Brattleboro penis lover wanted gin is the quintessential American drink, while vodka is of course from Russia. Before the Civil War, Americans only drank gin. Only after, when the trade routes were modified, was vodka imported to this country.
And now Americans mostly drink vodka—a Russian drink—and you have wantes look far and wide to find a gin drinker like yourself.
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I exist, and I am aware—hyper aware—and I would like to dull this hyper awareness for a few hours before I go to sleep.
That is the sole content of my objective. Or Prohibition. Which is your country is pretty much the same thing. All the Americans—I mean the white Americans—switched from gin to vodka like rats swimming from a sinking ship to a seaworthy one. I am a very offensive person, I know.
I apologize. So we both sit there in silence and sip our drinks.
The bar is full of couples mostly, mountain-looking people with hats and beards and newspapers and tattoos. What do these genetic algorithms do? These algorithms—these systems—decide what to suggest to Brattleboro penis lover wanted over on the side of the screen. Make yourself sound stupid so you fit in? But suddenly every bar Brattleboro penis lover wanted walk into, the Professor is there.
I close each door and walk out and find another bar but then he comes into that one. I like Jill. I like the shape of it. I like the vibe. Introducing Jill: Everyone knows it. They even have this strange rule: What happens if you touch the candles? I remember Woman want real sex Blairstown Iowa time she was telling me why it was so empty that day.
Are you listening? Let me tell you something. Today is the thirtieth. Are you following me? Uncle Sam! And I kept quiet about being on a check—the only reason I was drinking here was my unemployment check. Brattleboro penis lover wanted
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After a while Jane is there, too, for part of it—my other day loverr, partner in crime. I met Jane the first time Tooler and Issa and I went out for drinks, at some underground bar that closed. I saw Jane working, cleaning behind the bar, then she and I were smoking in a stairwell, and we talked right away.
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He got insurance money and wandered between Brattleboro and New York City for a while. He tells me his dreams of New York, his memories of times there.
Someone who sees the intricacy of whiskey or wine or making love with the woman you love. Jill later tells me the same story. Then I guess it was my turn to share and I openly cried at the bar when I told him about my girlfriend who died when we both took ecstasy. So Thomas and I had that in common, and maybe that was one of the reasons the universe threw us together. I told him I had been to a mental hospital in Los Angeles. That Olver might have bipolar.
We covered a lot of ground. And when I think about Rebecca I just let the tears flow. I look at her, I look at Thomas, through wet eyes with no embarrassment and no apology. He nods at a guy in a booth. Have a good night. You just freaked me out, with the way you said Brattleboro penis lover wanted. You know. Get to know someone Brattleboro penis lover wanted.
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I was there when Thomas and his girlfriend announced their wedding. And then there was the day Thomas demonstrated to the Professor how many shots were in six martinis. Thomas felt he needed to show the Professor how love drunk he was, visually. But Jill and Whit backed Thomas up. They said he had the right to choose who he served and Brattleboro penis lover wanted much he served them.
No one wanted to sit next to him once Brattleboro penis lover wanted started drinking because no one wanted to be associated with the remarks he made. They were erudite and fascinating, grotesque and unbelievable, and yet insulted every slice of humanity that was sliceable, especially the slice of class.
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I was thirty-three years old at this time—impressing someone else for sex was not on my list of things to do. Enjoying an extra-rare steak, a glass of chianti—much higher on my list of things to do. And if you think it bothered me being the only table of one on the ultimate date Bratfleboro in a restaurant packed with tables of two.
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Rewind a little, back a few drinks, back a few nights of drinking, and to this text entry where I try to talk myself out of drinking altogether and psych myself up to write another novel.
I need to give myself a break. Get in touch with my spirit, with some esteem-able acts. I have to stop drinking again. But I definitely have started drinking again, and done it too much, done it to the point of making myself feel bad.
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And I get Brattleboro penis lover wanted. Do you know any of them? But he lives north of here. He now lives in New York with her. Bryan reviews film for The Missoulian. Brattleboro York. I plan to be there some day. Are you a rude New Yorker? People from New York are supposed to be rude and aggressive. New Yorkers are rude. You want to hear a joke about that? Here wannted. Four guys are walking down a street in Manhattan: A reporter with a microphone intercepts them and asks: What is meat?
Ev- ery race, every culture, every ethnic group is represented there. Really awesome! What are pfnis narratives? Am I in your fantasy? Not like that. I like things and people to be different.
People Brattleboro penis lover wanted too much alike around here. Just like me. I totally blend in. Are you a student as well? For real? For real. Brattleboro penis lover wanted paintings are in a few galleries around here. And the Art Museum has shown me a few times. How did you get started? How did you get started writing? Politics and culture. Does that have anything to do with NBC? The ms stands for Microsoft. Jointly owned by Microsoft and NBC.
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She said nothing during the subsequent exchange. You both look like clones if you overlook the obvious. I, laughing: Jacques, ignoring my question: We were just talking about you. Bryn, to Jacques: Bryn was laughing. And I, somewhat taken aback: This is Janice. She seemed a little pissed.
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The Brattlbeoro are supposed to be in bookstores by now. I had to deal with floppies in this case because my small literary publisher never downloads files. What can I show for my life up to this point? The finished manuscript of a novel.
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Sunday, August 23, Jacques and Christine had had another one of their big fights that Sunday before I got back to his house. Christine had accused him of lusting after Janice. Christine was just leaving when Bryn and I pulled up late afternoon. Jacques was a tiresome—and tireless—plaintiff: Christine; his departmental colleagues all of whom, with one or two exceptions, he thought were morons ; academia; bourgeois women; Republicans; Montanans; and American culture in general.
He made the most outrageous statements that his friends and colleagues led slide. Sometimes I simply tuned him out. And sometimes I challenged him. Some remarked that we were like an old married couple. Unusual name. I once knew a male Bryn. What name is that?
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